Sad today

I’m really kinda sad today.

I don’t really know why.

I’m just…not quite right, if that makes any sense. A long time ago I would have called it a bad personal day.

I think part of it is my weight right now. It’s not even just my weight, I’m just not happy with my body. I used to be. I know it’s because I’ve stopped working out all together. I have people to get into this again with, but I’m just not feeling it and I don’t know why. I want to feel better, but I don’t have the motivation.

Not even the wedding is a motivator. I want to be married to Chris, I am ready for it. I just feel like I’m stuck in having to get all this stuff done right now. I can’t ever get it all done. NEVER, and I know that, but it still makes me sad. Ugg!

OK well I promised photos so here you go. Here’s the first dress I purchased:

But I had to purchase this one. No picture of me in it, but everytime I thought about my wedding day with Chris I see myself in this dress. Now I just need to figure out how to look (and feel) great in it. Anyone have any suggestions to get there. I need the motivation please.